Some Observations

There’s been such a flurry of emotion upon my return. Friends are intrigued and glad to know I’m home with lots of questions that can be answered in due course. As a family, it’s a double edged sword. Mum’s home, but actually, not quite as before. I am now a cancer patient- yes a victim of the Big ‘C’ and it’s scary. Having had my period of adjustment to this diagnosis in the darkness and silence of an often empty Hospital ward it’s time for those close to me who have had to ‘keep calm and carry on’ to let go a little. Grieve, show sadness, anger, confusion, disbelief. So many emotions stirred by fear and the unknown. It’s not just a patient who lives with cancer, it’s all who are closely linked, immediate family and those who are instrumental in your life. I’m hoping that by listening and hearing how others feel I can explain a few of the ‘facts’ and just pray that my courage and confidence will help ease their concern and anguish. There’s a lot I can’t answer- “is this it? You’re fixed now?” “When will we know if it’s worked?” “Will you be back to normal again soon?” I actually don’t believe there is a normal, there’s just a new. And everyday there will be more ‘new’ to embrace.

One day at a time, for I’ve always believed that today is the first day of the rest of your life.