Strange & New

Wow, what a weekend. From not wanting to venture out because of my new found insecurities, to laughing and celebrating with work colleagues and friends- then a whole day filming for the most amazing campaign, 300 miles away from home! I never thought I would be shy, actually feel like the misfit I’ve always joked about being. Me, the crazy one who ended up on stage at parties, dancing on tables; singing down the mic, yes, Me, unnerved as I am now actually different. I’m a cancer patient, not only that, my cancer is visible; both from the outside looking in and from the inside looking out. It’s created a humbleness in my personality that I’m growing to be kind of fond of. So, after having some nervous moments and messed up thoughts, I ventured alone into situations that I would have, at one time, before OM, been completely un phased by- but now I feel a definite glitch in my confidence. What am I sensitive to? Have I changed? I do look a little different with my wonky eye and my tired face; maybe it’s that. Or maybe it’s that I am different. There’s very little that changes you in life, but then Cancer isn’t little is it? I shared my day, my story and my experience with the most incredible group of people today. All brought together having had their hearts touched. Everyday I feel more certain that this journey I’m on is one to create change. I’ve received emails and messages of thanks from strangers who’ve been and done something about a niggle they’ve had- what a feeling- to actually be ‘making a difference’. Incorporating my life’s career and family into this is a real privilege and I’m so grateful to those who are providing me with a platform to be noticed on. We will kick the crap out of this. What an opportunity. I never imagined feeling empowered to create such a difference in such an important way.