Fairground Follies

I always did seem to thrive on a roller coaster lifestyle. Here one day, there the next; adrenaline fuelled and filled personal and career world. I loved the buzz, the mild, almost controlled, chaos that ensued from a cause and reaction type event. The gentle pounding of your heart as your mind spins it’s cogs to unravel the requirements to get things done that to some would seem nye on impossible. Well, after a couple of much calmer years on a nice steady merry-go round that old Big Dipper is back. New loop the loops and all! There’s a part of me that still thrives for the adrenaline to course through my veins; there’s now another side that just needs the pain relief to get through those same vessels and stop the constant reminders that things just aren’t how they used to be. I know we all get old and have niggles and twinges- but give me a break. I’m niggled out right now! My happy high this week was to appear (or not; as is the case with radio) on BBC3counties as their Mystery Guest. http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/p05thtjs#t=0h37m35s (Link will be live until 6th March 2018- starts 37mins into the show) I asked the producer why she had reached out to me upon which she responded that she had been ‘following my story’. Wow, very humbled to be honest. To her I have had, still have, an interesting career as a professional celebrity make-up artist and now that I have OM she was fascinated in how I am using my own cancer diagnosis to pursue a fulfilment of awareness, gaining support and hopefully giving hope and encouragement to others. Not to mention hi-lighting the importance of self awareness and most relevant to OM, regular eye tests! So I spoke, a lot, about my incredible career journey and then about my work with the 2 charities I’ve chosen, or rather have been guided towards. I was often asked whether I’d carry on my make-up artistry and working with people skills that you develop as a make up artist and now I know that yes, giving something back and having such an incredible purpose is so rewarding. It’s also very good for my soul as it does feel marginally squished at times going through all these life changes. I am however writing these words today at just gone 5am as I’m lying here with neuropathic pain in my leg after my knee op, a slight dull ache in my OM eye, minor concern for the ensuing procedure that will have to happen shortly and then there’s that magical halo of double everythingness that kind of makes my phone screen appear to be made of rubber! I think it’s time for the ‘Tea-Cup’ ride now. Kettle going on.